Stalking The One You Love

Have you ever been so obsessed with someone that you felt the need to follow he /she wherever they went, no matter the time (be it day or middle of the night)?
Then feel somewhat bad or ashame of being that insecure. Especially if you're the most hottest thing to walk around.
How does one overcome the need to be w/ their other half 24/7..Can it be done?
Of course but with alot of self-discipline!!!
You need to learn the art of attraction and repelling at the same time..as frustrating, crazy, and impossible as it sounds..it can be done. You need to be attached to you partner when they're unattach physically to you..
You know the saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder". Give he/she space and time to miss u. Have and enjoy your own quality time to yourself and live your life.

Getting Played And The Broken heart

Looking back to my past relations, i can't help but to feel disgusted, ashame, and most of all hurt by the guys who played me. Of course each one of them said that they love me..yea rite.
If someone the loves you, then why do people hurt the ones the love the most. I dont understand. I don't know if anyone can answer that question.
But we all know we are only human, capable of making stupid mistakes. And sometimes not through any fault of our own. People will let you down, and in return you'll let another person down.
To get over the disappointment, we have to move on some kind of way. Forgive and forget. Because if the shoe was on the other foot, wouldn't you want to be forgiven too. Wouldn't you want the peace of mind and to heal your guilty conscience.

Take My Bank Card??? lol

I just had a memory today.. About the time a guy asked me for money. And it's not like I'm against lending money to people, especially to a man I have feelings for.

But thats beside the fact...Anyway

This guy asked me for some money. Although this guy just received a huge settlement through such and such..(not going through any details). But he received well over 100,000 that same year. So why the heck are you asking to borrow money from me?? And to make matters worse, he blew through 75% of that money in the matter of months.

Don't ask me how or why? Because I don't know lol. And I'm not sure I want to find out. (getting back to the topic)

Let us explore our options and reasons why he's asking me for money, and why he felt entitled to it (lol little boys, I tell you.. I wouldn't even consider that poor sap a "man")  Reason #:

1. Maybe he is on drugs. 
I've noticed his drastic weight change, his moody behaviors, and weird vibes coming from him. It could be stress also, but can't say.

2. He's trying to run game to see if he can get any money out of me. 
Well I'm no fool. I can tell when someone is trying use the gift of gab on me. So game doesn't work if I don't want any parts of it. 

3. He's the fool and lacks common sense.
Well it would explain him blowing through money on petty things. With NOTHING to show for it. Who blows through all their cash and doesn't have not one thing to show where their cash went to?? Unless drugs were involved, which brings me right back to reason # 1. SMDH

Anyway I can't say for sure why he would. But it sure wasn't attractive and at that moment all I could think about was how to get this poor sap at of my face and house!! 

I told him, I don't keep cash on me (which wasn't a lie). You would think he'd get the hint and take leave.

 No, he then turns around , sighs & blows hot air in my face, and says " alright I'll go to the atm for you and get the money myself". 

UMMM EXCUSE ME?!?!?! LOL!!! 

Ahh does it have stupid written across my head!!

 Like I'm going to trust a man, (whom isn't my bf to begin with and supposedly in a relationship, but felt he was entitled to claim me also, as if I didn't have a choice)  who blew through alot of money in a matter of months and has baby mama drama, with my bank card?? 

So umm how does he wants my "NO" , slow or fast, should I spell it out for him too?

Need I say anymore? That man is trapped in a little boy's mind frame. Very sad.